Confusion

By: Viki

Disclaimer: I don’t own the characters or MSW, just borrowing them for my enjoyment. And if I were making money…I wouldn’t be posting on a free website.

I’m a man of logic and, to some degree, science. I pride myself in the ability to read people after only a few lines of dialogue. But that pride was dented tonight when my beloved Jessie shocked me.

We argued earlier in the week, and after some long talks with her best friend, a man that I have come to think of as a close friend as well, I came to the conclusion that I had reacted badly to her decision. He explained to me that she had only been trying to please me, not hurt me. He also made me realize that I would never have her completely, that I was being selfish in thinking, no believing, that she would give up her home and friends to live with me.

Seth was right.

I was being selfish, and I felt like a fool when I realized it.

Thanks to Seth’s words of wisdom, I was able to make amends to my bonnie lass and ask for her forgiveness…and salvage the rest of our time together.

Although we avoid the subject, I know that it is always on our minds. I want her in my life, and I’ve decided that marriage is out of the question. She’ll never be able to fully give up her life here, no matter how much of her heart belongs to me. Living and being a part of this coastal village is as much a part of Jessie as her blonde hair and blue eyes.

So, one can imagine my shock when she came to me tonight and told me…yes. She said yes!

But why?

What prompted her to change her mind?

Why would she whisper that one little word knowing that it is what I have wanted to hear for so long now?

What has changed in her since our argument?

As I sit here writing, and trying to think this situation through, my mind is still filled with so much confusion that my head is beginning to ache.

She astounds me. She’s the most lovely creature on this earth as well as the most frustratingly hard to read.

The same questions are still spinning in my head along with the image of her beautiful blonde hair being blown about in the wind as she smiled at me earlier.

I need to clear my mind. Maybe if I take a walk in her beloved sea air, it will help this stubborn confusion.